Needing

The fan’s air hits my face as the night goes on
I keep it on so I don’t feel so alone
Because silence is so loud
And every waking minute reminds me that I am

The hum drones on -- unchanging not faltering
I pretend that it’s your breathing
Then I turn and face the wall yet it still reaches down my neck
Shivers arise like it was your fingertips tracing down

My self-control is paper-thin
I am I think in too deep this time to slip away
So save yourself from me dear
Defend your walls for I’ll invade

I’ll watch the corners of your lips
Like wanting us to kiss
Trace this moment fall forever
And then your eyes meet mine

And you say the moment is amorous
Like needing my love to live
Feelings deep as the sky
Like fire burning under my skin inside

Let me love thee with love divine
Let my words be my hands
Let my voice carry you someplace safe
And watch me ‘til you get sick

And maybe you’ll feel it when you close your eyes
You’ll see my smile like I see yours
And in time you’ll feel me hold your hand
But you’ll wake up and never see me there

Could you live like that, love?
Oh lonesome heart beat steady still
Let your love be strong
I’ll carry you in my arms